Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Ahhhhh.... Mexico

I took a girlfriend (my friend and Reiki healer) with me to Mexico a couple months ago. I really needed a week of quiet... meditation time. I knew at that point, she was the only person I could be with that I could "just be" - whatever I needed at any moment, for a week, with no expectation of going or doing... anything. There are very few people I know, that can just be still. A lot of people feel the same about me. I know people see me as very outgoing, very excitable... but, what most people don't know, is that I spend a great deal of my time alone. I love peace and quiet, no TV, no radio, no noise whatsoever. I spent most of my life being the very opposite, fortunately, I've changed almost everything about my life and that was the biggest for me. I'm free at last... I no longer need to cover the anxiety... the "I should be...." Mexico was everything I imagined and more. We stayed in a gorgeous little gated community up against the Pacific Ocean, an hour away from any sort of town. When I walked through the community the day after we arrived, I had a strong curious sense that I had lived there before, not only that, it felt like that was where I belonged... I was home... this is where I came from or need to be. It was an incredible experience, magic like, I was so in awe. The people so friendly, kind, generous, happy, spiritual, loving, so family oriented... I think the stork dropped me in the wrong place... it forgot to head south for the winter... I guess that doesn't make sense, I was born in July. Well... whatever... the egg landed in the wrong part of the world. Don't get me wrong, I love where I live, it is so beautiful, so peaceful, so everything I need right now... I am very grateful I was "brought here"! It is just interesting though, when you feel that moment that "you have been there before," that you are in the right spot, at the right moment and this is your family, your people, your tribe... they immediately connect with you, unlike your own home, your own family, it was so "spiritual", so.... magic like... You know how when you get back from vacation, and a couple days later it doesn't feel like you ever left... I felt that way, yet I still feel Mexico in me when I take a moment to breath and be in awe with life.... I see/feel it in "my body/soul/mind". Have you been somewhere that felt like you have "come home"... or you've been there before... yet, not in this life... that you recall...!!?? Is it a fleeting moment or can you bring it back at anytime... Is it "Deja vous" - "Past life".......? What do you think....!!?? The wonder of life..... Your friend, Juli